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Topic: What have I done?
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El Indio
VoivodFan
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posted May 08, 2003 12:08
Sorry about my acid/booze/pot/blow/etc. flashbacks. I have a bad habit of going off on these crazy tangents. In fact I was even given my own Off Topic thread at a different message board. As for Kurt and Courtenay, does anyone ACTUALLY believe that she had anything to do with his untimely death!?! Does anyone remember her reactions afterwords - especially that tearful message which she read out to everyone? It pained me to listen to her. As for Kurt, I honestly believe that he died by his own hands. Sure there obviously was alot of behind the scenes conflicts going on such as his own struggles with heroin addiction, marital problems, band problems, legal problems, amongst other things. Heck, I have a hard enough time trying to deal with "reality" while I'm straight! I'm also a pisces like Kurt (I am only two weeks younger than he!) - now you know why I drink like a fish! - who, incidentally and very unfortunately, was trying to come down from a serious coke binge during that fateful week when he offed himself. In the final analysis, Kurt dug his own grave just like I was busy digging my own grave when I was indulging in blow. Going up is great but coming down is scairy! For me it was extreme anxiety and paranoia to the point of being schizoid. And no fooling either! I like to believe that I have succeeded in filling in my own grave a bit - at least until I recently offended Puzzled...
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Puzzled
VoivodFan
Member # 294
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posted May 08, 2003 19:43
quote: Originally posted by El Indio: Sorry about my acid/booze/pot/blow/etc. flashbacks. I have a bad habit of going off on these crazy tangents. In fact I was even given my own Off Topic thread at a different message board. As for Kurt and Courtenay, does anyone ACTUALLY believe that she had anything to do with his untimely death!?! Does anyone remember her reactions afterwords - especially that tearful message which she read out to everyone? It pained me to listen to her. As for Kurt, I honestly believe that he died by his own hands. Sure there obviously was alot of behind the scenes conflicts going on such as his own struggles with heroin addiction, marital problems, band problems, legal problems, amongst other things. Heck, I have a hard enough time trying to deal with "reality" while I'm straight! I'm also a pisces like Kurt (I am only two weeks younger than he!) - now you know why I drink like a fish! - who, incidentally and very unfortunately, was trying to come down from a serious coke binge during that fateful week when he offed himself. In the final analysis, Kurt dug his own grave just like I was busy digging my own grave when I was indulging in blow. Going up is great but coming down is scairy! For me it was extreme anxiety and paranoia to the point of being schizoid. And no fooling either! I like to believe that I have succeeded in filling in my own grave a bit - at least until I recently offended Puzzled...
You'll have to remind me of when that was, I don't seem to remember. Perhaps later I'll reread everything...as for people thinking Courtney had Kurt killed...I have been to a couple of bbs where it was a widely held veiw that she did and those boards where actually QUITE rampant with anti-Courtney propaganda. I'm not quite sure why anyone would go so far to increminate her, but it appears to me that there must be a few people who believe it because it was an extremely common thing.
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